A visit to the past

A Visit to the past -  6 years.....

 Almost 6 years ago,  I thought life was finally taking a  positive turn, I lost a very important person to me. This person was not perfect, but no body is perfect. I took him to ER and WATCHED his heart stopped in front of me. I was selfish and didn't want to let go because of Cancer..... a nurse named Angel brought me back to reality and she told me it was time to let go because even though if I tired to bring him back, he would not survive and will only be in "veggie" state to suffer some more before he left. The feeling to let go and make the decision to let go was very difficult and hard. Since then, I never went back to or even near that area/ER room. 

Today, I had an appointment. This appointment I did not know required me to go back to that same building where "he left". It has been close to 6 years. I have not once even walked close to the building, I did not know it was going to be this difficult.

Today, I re-lived the same feeling of losing a loved one. It was a horrible feeling and I wanted to cry the moral of today's blog post encompass a few main points:

1. tell the ones you love that you love them even if they piss you off

2. spend as much time as you can with your family

3. live life to the fullest and try not to be bitter.

 

Re-writing life!~ Finding a way

Re-writing Life!

Hey! If you know me, you might be reading this blog post and think I am crazy, but I know I am not (or at least I hope you would think I am not LOL). I am going to tell you why I named my blog post "Re-writing life!" Well for those of you that know me, you know I've been dealing with depression for quite a while now, practically on and off and all my life. Don't worry, I am not those that would harm myself or harm others. My way to cope with depression in the past was eat and sleep however I think there is a new way I should deal with life. I do not have multiple personality disorder, but I was just thinking........ we have technology where we can write things and share things with people and we have photoshop to make us look amazing! The world so small can also be the world that is so big. Like the picture, the blog is focused on one of many, but in this blog the focus will be on me and what I write could be from my imagination with a mix of what goes on in real life to create stories where it shares experiences!

Well some of you would say, well then you would be lying..........well NO, it's not lying it's that I am creating stories for you to read, but at the same time sometime it's the full truth so you know that "you" who has depression like me are not alone! :)

How I am going to start with my re-writing of life? Well first of all there are a lot of inspiration and things i would like to do and achieve. Life that is aside from work that will help me to stay alive. We work to live and live to work, but we also should live the life to the fullest! I will spend my free time creating my e-mag that will be re-launched and the genre would be different and will make things for I love handmade stuff! I look forward to a new and positive life!