A visit to the past

A Visit to the past -  6 years.....

 Almost 6 years ago,  I thought life was finally taking a  positive turn, I lost a very important person to me. This person was not perfect, but no body is perfect. I took him to ER and WATCHED his heart stopped in front of me. I was selfish and didn't want to let go because of Cancer..... a nurse named Angel brought me back to reality and she told me it was time to let go because even though if I tired to bring him back, he would not survive and will only be in "veggie" state to suffer some more before he left. The feeling to let go and make the decision to let go was very difficult and hard. Since then, I never went back to or even near that area/ER room. 

Today, I had an appointment. This appointment I did not know required me to go back to that same building where "he left". It has been close to 6 years. I have not once even walked close to the building, I did not know it was going to be this difficult.

Today, I re-lived the same feeling of losing a loved one. It was a horrible feeling and I wanted to cry the moral of today's blog post encompass a few main points:

1. tell the ones you love that you love them even if they piss you off

2. spend as much time as you can with your family

3. live life to the fullest and try not to be bitter.

 

Re-writing life!~ Finding a way

Re-writing Life!

Hey! If you know me, you might be reading this blog post and think I am crazy, but I know I am not (or at least I hope you would think I am not LOL). I am going to tell you why I named my blog post "Re-writing life!" Well for those of you that know me, you know I've been dealing with depression for quite a while now, practically on and off and all my life. Don't worry, I am not those that would harm myself or harm others. My way to cope with depression in the past was eat and sleep however I think there is a new way I should deal with life. I do not have multiple personality disorder, but I was just thinking........ we have technology where we can write things and share things with people and we have photoshop to make us look amazing! The world so small can also be the world that is so big. Like the picture, the blog is focused on one of many, but in this blog the focus will be on me and what I write could be from my imagination with a mix of what goes on in real life to create stories where it shares experiences!

Well some of you would say, well then you would be lying..........well NO, it's not lying it's that I am creating stories for you to read, but at the same time sometime it's the full truth so you know that "you" who has depression like me are not alone! :)

How I am going to start with my re-writing of life? Well first of all there are a lot of inspiration and things i would like to do and achieve. Life that is aside from work that will help me to stay alive. We work to live and live to work, but we also should live the life to the fullest! I will spend my free time creating my e-mag that will be re-launched and the genre would be different and will make things for I love handmade stuff! I look forward to a new and positive life!

Nothing comes unrewarded & a giveway notice!

Today I went to shop for 3 families.....2 for work and 1 individual that was adopted for ilovehandmadestuff.com to thanks those who support me and have reached out through, facebook, face to face at work and zibbet.com/etsy and swag for my other brand eoejewelry. :)

I went to Christiana Mall today in DE to save on taxes and get more bang for the butt. IT was super hard to get to and I was running out of gas. Fortunately enough for me, i did pretty good at shopping and there was this nice family that led me to the closest gas station so I won't be stuck on the highway! I am stupid and forgot to ask for their name, but I told them they can go on ilovehandmadestuff.com and pick out an item that I can send to them :) Hopefully they remember and claim it to show my appreciation. :)

On a side note, who doesn't love GIVEAWAYS??? I am sponsoring a contest and the 3rd place winner will win this bracelet!  Read the entry details and etc here!! :)

http://www.edensevaluations.blogspot.com/

Handmade stuff haul of my handmade stuff :-P

During Thanksgiving break I was able to make use of some free time to take pictures and then upload them to my shop, something I wanted to do for a long time. Finding time to blog and etc is hard! Sometimes, I can't seem to find things to say because I feel like I am talking to myself. Do I take the type to type and blog like I am writing a diary..or do I type like I am talking to you, those who are reading my blog? LOL I don't know, I guess I'll figure out as time comes since time is suppose to make us wiser and smarter? (If it's true)....BUT! #(&$*#$*(#$ hehe in the mean time, check my items out in my zibbet shop @ www.zibbet.com/ilovehandmadestuff

Here's a rose quartz bracelet with a clover charm :)

Here's a pair of earrings that are aquamarine! :) go to my shop for more items and I am going to upload more items soon! Tata!

Meet me under the mistletoe!

Who can't wait for the Holiday? Christmas? I know...I know... some people will think it's rude since I actually said Christmas, but let me tell you. I am not a Christian, but over the years as we were growing up we adapted to this culture in America by celebrating Christmas....LOL why? because my family which is buddist believe that it's nice to celebrate with the other people around the world as a holiday to be with families and give gifts and get gifts! :) WHo doesn't like gifts? I LOVE GIFTS! even when it's not a hoilday.

This year, i am going to make gifts for people, it will be all handmade so i can support handmade! Weeee! 

I have a shop, my shop is http://www.zibbet.com/ilovehandmadestuff

For Christmas I made this little bib for my friend's cute baby, let me know if you want one! :)

Aloha! I am back!

Aloha!  Wow! I didn't realize it has been about 8 month since I've last blogged. My busy schedule has led me to neglect my craft :(. Yea I know it sucks! I still love to make things and I love sharing what I make with people by selling it at a local store, zibbet or etsy!

ETSY is way too established for me tho... I feel like it's hard to get featured and it's always the same set of people that gets featured.

Zibbet however is newer and has less traffic, but I foresee them becoming like ETSY!  With that being said, here's a special. Life time deal for 200 dollars and never pay a fee again. It has a lot of great function like ETSY!

:) on a side note, here's my latest creations!

A sweet surprise! Innocent love...

Did you ever wish that you can read the your future like a book so you can prevent certain things from happening? Well I did, but as previously stated when you try to prevent losing something valuable, you can lose something important. On Friday, I had a fortune cookie and I didn't really get a fortune, but instead I got a wise saying. IT IS SO TRUE! Hopefully everyone can learn from everyone's mistake.

Though, I had a bad case of morning blues and woke up at like 430AM...I had a sweet surprise yesterday that lifted up my mood. For the first time I met my baby cousin and he was extremely cute and adorable. I could totally eat him! LOL He at first didn't talk to me then stuck to me like glue. He made me feel so wanted and love...... the innocence of a child can brighten up my day, but he knew how to pick toys since I had none at home. LOL he stole my iPOD for games.

At the end of the day, this little cutie pie kept leaning on me on my sofa and called me "COUSINNNNNN" lol and gave me a sticker because he liked me and he was super excited and said come on come on, take a picture with me! :) Heart totally melts. I miss him already because he went home! I should pay him a visit soon.